“If all else perished, and he remained, I should still continue to be; and if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty stranger: I should not seem a part of it.”—Emily Bronte, Wuthering Heights
If it wasn’t so cold, I would probably decide to go for a hike up Hixon Forest today. I don’t even know what came over me, but I have the biggest urge to go. Looking at the dashboard on my Mac, today’s the warmest it’s going to be all week. Maybe I’ll just bundle up and go anyway. Walk one of the easy trails that I always ignored before, just to look around.
I’ve been laying in bed for about nine hours. My body’s too sore to be here anymore, but my mind is too lazy for me to get up.
I’m so hungry. I feel like I live my life hungry anymore. I’m sick of snacking every day. I want more than just one warm meal at dinner. It’s not fair that I can’t eat anything at school. You wanna know what they served yesterday? Bosco sticks (for those of you who don’t know, those are huge cheese-filled breadsticks), meatball subs and chicken nuggets (with breading, obviously). It’s been like that all week. There isn’t anything even close to being wheat-free. Even the cereals they offer have wheat in them! On Thursday, all I had until dinner was a banana, a tiny stick of beef jerky and a bottle of apple juice. So yesterday I was about ready to kill something, and I broke down and had the chicken nuggets. They were delicious. It’s unreal. So far so good, and I haven’t gotten sick. I’m not sure how they expect me to keep my attendance high if they keep serving food that I can’t eat, though. Vegetarians are more likely to be satisfied at my school than I am.
I’m not even sure why I’m using my tumblr to ramble. Rarely do I just open a post and start writing whatever I’m thinking about. Maybe I could become a writer who uses the “stream of consciousness” style! Ha! I think I’m just feeling lonely today.
Anyway, I’m getting my hairs dyed at 2:15! I’m excited. Jean does a fantastic job, and it’s been a while. The only color that lasted very long was the blonde, and that’s because you can only be so organic when you’re working with bleach.
I hope today’s awesome, Or at least above average.
Things I am no where near prepared for: -Finals this week -The college essays I have to write -The scholarship essays I have to write -Full-time school next week -Solo and ensemble next month -Going to college
As wonderful as our Thanksgiving Break was, Winter Beak blew it out of the water. I spent a week with all of my best friends and my boyfriend, reconciled with someone I thought I would never be able to look eye to eye with again and lost my private vocal instructor. Some parts of the past ten days sucked, and at points I hurt more than I ever thought I’d be able to. I think it’s because of that that I also felt more loved and comfortable and part of something than I’d ever felt before. I would not change a single thing from break.
I am beyond content with how life is going for me right now. I hope no one takes that away from me.