When life turned out this way for me in the past, I used to drug myself into sleep. I’d try to do anything I could to be out of consciousness. I’d wake up at noon, and roll over and continue to sleep.
This is different. Now, I stumble off to bed early in the morning, And wake up at the smallest sound. I’m swallowed by the world around me - I feel like I’m trapped in a nightmare. It snaps reality in such a sharp image around me that I can’t get back to sleep. I spend more hours awake than I ever used to.