I just cried my eyes out because of you,
And you don’t even realize it.
I walked around the house, taking gasping breaths,
And you continued on ignorantly.
Your hatred will never cease to surprise me.
Even when it’s not directed at me,
The way you see others - other life, other people - shocks me so much that I can’t help but be overtaken by it.
And I know that if you saw me crying,
And if you knew why,
It would only make you angrier.
You’d never stop and think about it,
Or see how wrong your actions are.
Everyone is disposable to you.
All we’re good for is doing what you want us to,
And if we don’t do that, we’re worthless.
We may as well disappear until the job is done by someone else.
I think the worst part is how you always reel me in.
It’s easy for me to say I hate you.
I think you deserve less because of how you are,
And I truly believe it,
Until you spend even five minutes treating me like I’m human.
Then I regret all of the bad influences I’ve made on people,
And the image I’ve painted of you in their head.
And then it starts again.
And you treat me, and others alike, as though we’re garbage.
I’m overwhelmed all over again.
I keep telling myself I won’t ever trust you again.
But I keep almost allowing myself to.
It’s not fair that you have this much control over me.
I can’t wait until I get out of here,
And I can break away from it.